01 February 2013

End Times

 
 
I keep retyping this entry, I am not sleeping well and all my meds have kicked in.  So, Im sorry if this entry is all over the place.

W is out of town and I knew he was going, but I didn't hear from him until I txt him until after 8pm.  I am not happy with  him.  I don't think he does it to be malicious................God, I hope not.  I think he is really just a "guy" ...............................................and I Im the biggest sucker in Candy Land.

Maybe I have ridiculously high expectations.  I have spoken to a few married Marines who have said their wives' have very similar issues (the guys forgot what their dick's for.)  They just laugh it off.

 Right now I feel like I am making a big deal over nothing.  If he doesn't want me then why the fuck would I stay.  I think 3 years post affair and we should be much further along than we are.  I think it is time for me to make a decision.  A permanent one.


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