Forward

Because if I look back, I am lost.

W has been gone all week for work.  This will be the norm for the next 6-9 months.  Again, I am ok with this.  Not just more so than before; I am truly just as comfortable with him gone as I am with him glued to the PS3 playing COD.

Before he left, we had a very insightful discussion regarding us.  At one point he high fived me.  And it was good.  It was the first serious conversation we have had in so long.

I am reminded of when we first met.  When it was fun to flirt a little but we spent more time as friends.   I have always heard that you should marry your best friend.  I wonder if this is really what they had in mind.

But to move forward, it is not wise to look back.  The silly, little girl notions of "happily ever after" are gone.  Reality is messy.  However, there is something very refreshing about where I find myself.  Great Expectations aside; I have the rest of my life to look forward to.